I’m really worried that this will fuck up our friendship. What if he’s been scoping me out this whole time, waiting for his chance to pounce? Also if he decides he doesn’t want to be around me anymore, I’m going to be alone for the rest of the summer. And then what happens if we do decide to get together, become a couple. I’m looking for any general advice regarding sexuality and figuring yourself out as well.
tl;dr: Thought I was straight, ended up engaging in mutual oral sex with a friend that I also thought was straight.
After all this heavy conversation we decided to play some CS: GO together like we usually do but we ended up in bed together instead. We haven’t told anyone yet, but decided not to go out of our way to keep it a secret.
Afterwards we talked some more and discussed the possibility of a relationship. The area we live in is reasonably tolerant and neither of our parents are anti-gay, which I am grateful for.
“I always hated the word ’bisexual,’ because that’s even putting me in a box,” Cyrus said, revealing her first relationship in life “was with a chick.” “My whole life, I didn’t understand my own gender and my own sexuality,” she added, recalling how she always hated “being a girl” yet “being a boy didn’t sound fun” either.
It wasn’t until she visited the Los Angeles LGBTQ center and listened to the stories of other queer people that she realized not identifying as anything in particular was an identity in itself.
One thing led to another and next thing I know he’s blowing me.
Though she’s currently dating former ex-boyfriend Liam Hemsworth again, Cyrus said understanding her gender and sexuality is something she’s grappled with since youth.
Afterwards we kissed, and then he awkwardly said that he should leave and went home. A lot of things clicked into place in my mind but I’m still confused about a lot of things.
I don’t look at porn often but when I do it’s usually women, but I’ve never met a woman irl that I was actually attracted to.
I told him that it was my first sexual experience ever and that I was questioning my sexuality now.
He told me that he had been questioning his sexuality for a while, and that he had feelings for men before, but had mostly seen me as just a friend until last night, when he realized that I was kind of sort of coming onto him in a really roundabout way.